37

My usual tradition to get ready for my birthday every year is to create an ultimate wish list, complete with attainable (shirts and books and whatnots) and not so attainable (hanging out with Andrew Lincoln, being serenaded by Ben Folds) things. I skipped my list last year because, well... I'll be honest, I just wasn't in the mood. Things in my own world and the world at large were pretty shitty and I didn't have it in me to prepare a list of things that seemed so far off the mark at the time.

A whole year has passed. And yes, the world is a scary place right now and things are balls out nuts, and my family has had one of the absolute craziest years to date, but all of the insanity and chaos and awfulness and freak accidents and weirdness has brought me to a very thankful place. I am so grateful for all of the good things and bright spots in my days that when the ickiness happens, it just makes me all the more appreciative for the smiles in my life.

So, instead of a wish list of 37 things for my 37th birthday, I am going to give you a list of 37 thank yous to celebrate my 37th year on this lovely little planet.

Feel free to contribute your own thank yous to my list and hell, start your own list. Making lists is fun and therapeutic!

1. My mom and dad- My parents are just really great people. Really great people who take excellent care of their family and friends. I will never be able to repay them for their kindness and support and just for listening to me vent, complain and cry when I need to. I'm very lucky to have them.
2. Coffee- It just makes me happy. The smell, the taste. Just the thought of coffee is happy times.
3. Eternal Tattoo (and Doug Bickle!)- for making mine and Natalie's first tattoo experience one of the absolute best memories I will ever have. 
4. My Dearborn Ophthalmology family- for being astoundingly awesome when Jeff had his fall/surgery. Between having to take sudden time off and being an absolute mess at work at times, they were supportive and understanding and always willing to give me a hug and make me laugh, or buy me coffee.
5. On that same note, I'll give a huge thank you to everyone at the Westland OptimEyes/Ophthalmology. It is so rare to find a place of work with so many wonderful, generous, giving, kind people. Who would have thought that when I first worked in that office 13 years ago, that to this day, they still remain like a family to Jeff and I. 
6. U-Scans- It's that whole me not wanting to interact with other people thing. It's just easy and convenient.
7. My mother and father in law- When Jeff got hurt this past summer, he literally couldn't do anything when he got home from the hospital. My mother in law came over every day for two weeks to help him and Charley, so I could go to work. My father in law came over so I could attend some events I was supposed to go to. Parents taking care of their kids... It doesn't stop at 18, folks!
8. Game of Thrones- For being one of the most visually stunning, creative, insanely well written series of television I have ever watched. You guys. IT'S SO GOOD. 
9. Carrie- for being my LYBF and constantly, constantly listening to me, making me laugh, having really great conversations with me, loving my kid like her own, and for getting me out of the house when I needed it and finding an alcoholic beverage that I actually really enjoyed!
10. Busy Phillips Instagram stories- I could have a really crappy day, or just be being feeling super blah and sit down and watch her instagram stories and they just make me so happy. She's funny and self deprecating and so pretty and her kids are adorable and I love her take on the world. Sometimes when I see something weird happening when I'm out, or read something online, I think to myself , "What would Busy think of this?" Seriously, if you don't follow her, follow her. She is a joy.
11. Natalie- for being one of the strongest people I know and making me laugh and being so excited when I surprised her with our tattoo appointments. For always wanting to cheer me up and for always wanting to help me out and for always tagging me in ridiculous memes. For teaching me how to poach eggs... and getting me out of the house when I needed it.
12. The Starbucks mobile app- I didn't order a pizza over the phone until I moved into my own house. I didn't go through a fast food drive-thru until I was 18. I have this weird anxiety about ordering things from people I don't know. That's why online ordering was invented for me!! It's the best thing ever. But you know what's even better??? BEING ABLE TO ORDER MY COFFEE ON MY PHONE AND THEN HAVE IT WAITING FOR ME WHEN I GET TO THE STORE. I don't have to talk to anyone!! And no matter how weird my order is, I just type it into that little handy app and voila! It's sitting there on the counter waiting for me, with my name on it (spelled correctly.) It's like magic. COFFEE MAGIC.
13. Dawn- for being one of the best friends a girl could ask for. For calming me when I was sitting in a waiting room for 5 hours while Jeff was having surgery and bringing my kid McDonalds when she was very pregnant... and for getting me out of the house when I needed it. 
14. The Gong Show- This stupid, stupid show that they brought back from the 70's made us laugh our asses off. It's absurd and stupid and can be completely awesome at the same time. From Tommy Maitland (Mike Myers) to the different judges every week, we looked so forward to sitting down for an hour every week and turning our brains off. After all, it was just for funsies! I really hope they bring it back next summer.
15. Bill- This dude came over every week from August to October and cut our grass because he said it was stupid for us to have to pay someone to do it. Even though him and my bff were getting ready for their first baby, even though he worked 40 hours a week, even though he was busy every weekend, he still showed up and did it for us every week. I can't tell you how lucky we are to have a friend like that. He's an awesome guy and we will never be able to thank him enough for that.
16. The Ranch- My parents kept telling us to watch this show on Netflix. With Ashton Kutcher, Debra Winger, Danny Masterson and Sam Elliott. We watched it right after Jeff's surgery and it made him laugh out loud for real. It made me happy to see him happy after all the doom and gloom with his hand and arm, and to be honest, it really is a good show. We still have a few episodes to go but we really enjoyed it.
17. Ben Folds- Through all the concerts and all the music and all of his projects, he has remained consistently entertaining. He's brilliant and clever and funny and he is so damn talented. I absolutely adore him.
18. Harry Potter- Because Freeform is always having a Harry Potter weekend, because Charley and I are re-reading the series, because when people ask me questions about the books or movies it makes me so happy and because there is always something magical around to remind of it. It brings people together and it makes people read and it is just constant. Always guaranteed to make me smile.
19. The Office- At Chuck's request we have been re-watching the series. Mine and Jeff's second go round and C's first. I was obsessed with this show for so many years. It is so cool to see Charley laugh at all the things we laughed at, cringe at Michael when he's awful, roll his eyes at Dwight and root for Jim and Pam the way we all did when it originally aired.
20. The Tragically Hip- I've talked about them before so I won't get all gooey about them again, but with the recent passing of Gord Downie, I realize how incredibly lucky I am to be able to say, "I saw them live." I was able to see Gord sweat his ass off and sing his ass off and shoot hoops like he was playing basketball. I was able to see him sing my favorite song, Ahead By a Century, live and I am so fortunate to be able to share those stories with Charley about how much his words and his voice meant to his dad and I. He was such a great guy and goddamn, it's so freaking sad that he's gone, but we were so lucky to have him for as long as we did.
21. Every single person who attended or contributed in some way to Jeff's FUNdraiser- I still cannot get over how fortunate we are to have so many thoughtful people in our lives. Jeff and I were so overwhelmed and humbled and grateful that night. You all blew us away. Seeing our families, friends, co-workers old and new and some people we didn't even know come to help us out was absolutely astounding and we are so so appreciative. 
22. Organizations like First Step and S.A.F.E. Haven- These places that help domestically abused women are so important. They donate their time and money to create a safe environment for women who have never experienced a safe, calm place before. They give them a starting point when they feel hopeless. They give them a home when they have nowhere else to go and more importantly, they give them hope. Hope is such an important thing for someone who feels lost and completely alone. They do such good work and the world is a better place having people like them in it.
23. Michael Ausiello and Zachary Levi- Every July I look so forward to San Diego Comic Con. No, not because I get to go, but because these two dudes have the best coverage of it on the internet. No one else feeds their fans the way these two do. They don't do the typical question/answer thing when it comes to the best pop culture news, they make it fun. And even though my beloved NerdHQ didn't happen this year, Zach still found a way to be involved and have his nerdom follow up with him. They are my pop culture heroes. 
24. My neighbors- The good ones, not the bad ones on the other side. They went above and beyond the day Jeff fell. Helping him call 911, calming Charley down and even destroying that asshole wasps nest so he wouldn't have to worry about it when he got home. They checked in with me every night and even gave me a big hug when I had a bit of a meltdown the first night Jeff was in the hospital. They are good people and even though we hate this tiny house that we live in, we are lucky to be next to such good people.
25. Dave and Chuck the Freak- They make me look forward to my morning drive to work. Sure, they can be pretty gross and inappropriate at times, but oh, how they make me laugh.
26. Little Caesar's $5 pizzas and crazy bread. You guys, it's just a really good deal. When I am at work all day, I don't feel like cooking by the time I get home and you know what is super easy and inexpensive? a five dollar fricken pizza. Yeah, it can taste like cardboard sometimes, but those days when it's piping hot, fresh out of the oven? Delicious. 
27. St. Mary's Hospital- Most of the people we encountered there from the emergency room to physical therapy were awesome. That's so huge when you're dealing with a medical crisis. It's huge. The ER nurse made us feel like we were her best friends and did everything she could to make Jeff comfortable. Not an easy task when your arm is the size of a large balloon animal.
28. Leftovers- I love leftovers because most of the time it means I don't have to make lunches for the next day. And you know why that's so great? Because I hate making lunches for the next day.
29. Charley- My Chuckster can be super awesome. He can also be super frustrating, but when he's super awesome, I am on top of the world. Like, last night, he was laughing so hard at me for doing a Donald Trump impersonation (I don't know why I was doing it. It was to make fun of him though, obviously) and anyway, he laughed so hard. That honest to goodness full belly laugh that made me laugh just as hard. I loved it. See? Kids are fun. 
30. SWORKIT- This is a stupid exercise app that I guess originated on that Shark Tank show. I love it because it lets me exercise at home, without having to embarrass myself in a gym and it makes me feel good about myself by presenting me with medals when I log in consistently and telling me how many calories I (probably) burned. The workouts are simple and they have examples of each exercise and sometimes Charley does it with me and that's cute. 
31. Chris Hardwick- I am thankful for him because he is a genuine fan of all the things he loves. Watching Talking Dead every week after WD makes me so happy because HE is so thrilled to be there interviewing the actors and talking to fans who are just as obsessed as he is. I love listening to his podcasts because he is an excellent, excellent interviewer. His excitement and nerdom brings me pure joy.
32. My poopers- Bristow and Bryn are really annoying sometimes, but you know what? They are dogs and most of the time they don't know any better. But really, they are great dogs and they make me feel better when I am sad, and some nights Bristow literally keeps me up all night long because he wants me to feed him breakfast at 2am or 3am or 4am, but sometimes he gets so excited when I pet him that his teeth chatter. And Bryn loves when I pet her so much that she'll knock me out, trying to paw at me to put my hand back on her head, but they are special and sweet and soft and cuddly and I love them a lot. 
33. Sleeping in on the weekends- I don't need to explain this one. It's the best, guys.
34. Bookstores- because I love being able to walk around and smell the books and look at the books and touch the books and see other people buying books. Just walking into a bookstore is enough to chill me out. Go buy some books. It's so relaxing. 
35. Google maps- because if I had to rely on a paper map or written directions to get anywhere, I would be absolutely screwed. Google maps is one of the best things to happen to this planet. The end. 
36. Hallmark Movies- All Hallmark movies for ALL seasons! I don't care if it's Christmas, Valentine's Day, Easter, 4th of July, Fall, Spring, Summer or Winter- I will take whatever cheesy Hallmark movie they want to make forever and always. As long as Lacey Chabert and Candace Cameron want to keep starring in them, I will keep watching them. Jeff and I will spend entire Saturdays or Sundays watching movie after movie and you know what? It's great. You know what else? Charley absolutely hates it, hahahahahahahaha
37. My Fred- because even though he has had the worst last few months and had to endure an insane 5 hour surgery and can't move his fingers or hand, he still has a sense of humor. I may have to remind him to stay positive sometimes, but he's been working so hard to try to get back to 100% and I'm so proud of him for that. I love him, dead hand and all XOXO

There you have it. A small portion of my every day smiles. I know there is a running theme throughout this list that always ends up circling back around Jeff's accident, but listen guys, it was a big deal and it was pretty awful. Sure, some people out there have it far, far worse than us, but when something disrupts your lifestyle so quickly and harshly, it's difficult to readjust. It's all good though. With the world being insane and having some really horrible people in it, we are extremely lucky to be thankful for so many things and so many people. I am so grateful for everyone's kindness and love and I hope as a favor to me, for my birthday, that you are all nice to each other. Tell someone they look pretty, or pet a dog, or tell someone what an awesome person they are. After all, it's not cool to be a dick. Nice people are the nicest. 

Here's to 37, ya'll.

So Long, Joe

Sitting front row for Steve Yzerman's 500th goal

 When I was in high school, I had to write a paper on my favorite place for one of my English classes. I chose to write about Joe Louis Arena. My dad (and Uncle & co.) had Red Wing season tickets the whole time I was growing up. When he started taking me to games it was like a whole new world opened up for me. A world of sportsmanship and heart and passion. So much passion. I loved walking into that arena, seeing everyone in their jerseys, the ushers handing out programs, people buying popcorn and beer, but most of all I loved opening the curtain to the rink itself and smelling the ice. There's nothing like that smell. That cool crisp, smack you in the face excitement of seeing your favorite players skate and pass a puck around. 

We sat in section 219 in the very last row. I suppose they would be classified as "nosebleed seats" to some, but not to me. I loved those seats with all my heart. We had no one behind us and the best view of the entire arena from where we were. The first thing I noticed about the place when the game started was how quiet it was. In between the "Let's go Red Wings!" and "Ozzie!" chants, you could actually hear the skates glide on the ice and the puck hit the players sticks and boards. Those sounds were like magic to me. And then we would score. When we would score, the place would go nuts. I would clap and hollar, and my dad would bang on the wall behind us, and everyone around our section, whether you knew them or not, would high five each other. It was glorious. 

No one celebrates like a Wings fan. 

I have been to countless games in that arena; NHL and college. Endured a plethora of "Osbad" jibes in that arena, seen two concerts, several fanfests and a few Joe visions and I cherish every single memory of every single experience. I used to come home from every game and write in my journal about how great my night had been and then talk to people at school the next day about how good (or bad) Chris Osgood had played. My dad thought he was just taking his daughter to a few games, but he was really creating a lifelong lasting memory and bonding experience that I would not give up for all of the Chris Osgood meet and greets in the world. 

After scoring his 500th goal

Through all those games and all those wins (with some heartache thrown in), all those Stanley Cups, all those stairs climbed (so many stairs), all those times of wishing I would just "happen" to run into Chris Osgood, smiling when they showed the orange hat guy, laughing (and maybe rolling my eyes a bit) when they would show Mo Cheese dancing in the aisle, saying hello to all the ushers, all those people mover rides, Joe Vision trips, and late nights... at the base of it all was a building. A meeting place for an entire Hockeytown to get together, have some snacks and a ginger ale or three, and take absolute joy and pride in a team that made them so happy. One rundown building where so many memories and stories were born, where people complained about the bathrooms and said it smelled of sweat and beer. A place for thousands of fans to call home for a night and cheer their hearts out for a team they love.

Chris Osgood (and Sergei Fedorov) during pregame warm ups

The new arena will be fancier and have a new name. I know some people hate what they chose to call it, but it's not about the name of the arena. It's about the memories built inside of it. It will house an entirely different sport and team along with our beloved Wings. It will have fun new food, better bathrooms and escalators(!). It will have an updated concourse and nice new digs for the players and staff, but it won't have the authenticity and heart of The Joe. Not yet anyway. It's up to us to make Little Caesars Arena just as special as our beloved Joe Louis Arena is to us. It will take some time, but fueled by the memories of the past 38 years, I think it's possible. 

Many many many thanks to my dad and my mom for always nurturing and respecting my love of hockey. Thanks to my dad for always picking the games I requested (my birthday and anytime we played the Islanders or the Blues after Osgood was traded) whether he wanted to or not, and to my mom for always writing them down for him (even though I'm sure he was made fun of by my Uncle and his friends when he showed up with a list. Ha.)

                                      So long, Joe. Thanks for the decades of memories. 

So Long 2016

So... 2016, eh?

Sure there was a lot of death... and depressing things... and sometimes it was downright unbearable, but it couldn't have been ALL bad, could it?

Some highlights of the year for me:

-Taking Charley to Chicago for Spring break. There were a million other people who had the same idea as us, and the weather wasn't that great, but we had a really great time together.

-I was able to take part in one of my best friend's wedding. Weddings are a lot of work and stress and worry, but in the end they are radiating with so much joy and love and I was so happy to play even a tiny part in Dawn and Bill's special day.

-Stranger things on Netflix. It's been awhile since a television show has pulled me in and made me excited to watch the next episode. This clever little series about a group of 12 year old boys and a girl named Eleven did just that. It's smart and nostalgic and so entertaining. I can't wait for season two.

-Harry Potter and The Cursed Child came out and we celebrated the release with the most fun Harry Potter party at Barnes & Noble in Northville. I was sorted into Gryffindor (of course), kicked butt at HP trivia and made my very own wand. It was the absolute best to be surrounded by fellow Potter nerds who understood the excitement of a new story being released into our magical little world.

-Rogue One was released, and while I admit that I was nowhere near as excited for it as I was for The Force Awakens, I am so happy to say it pleasantly surprised me. The story was so smart and I love how connected everything in the universe is. The acting was fantastic, and while SPOILER ALERT it's really extremely, super f'ing sad, (like, really sad, you guys. Like, I had tears streaming down my face and Jeff and Carrie and Charley were all looking at me like I had lost my mind,) it made so much sense and the end is pretty phenomenal.

-The Gilmore Girls revival; Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life finally came out. A long time ago when Gilmore Girls was on the CW (pre-Charley), I remember coming home from work every Tuesday and spending my evenings with Luke, Lorelai and Rory and losing myself in Stars Hollow for an hour every week. Just a tiny getaway where everyone talked fast and pop culture, family and love ruled. If Lorelai said a quippy one liner, I would save the episode and make Jeff rewatch the scene with me. It was fresh television floating around in a sea of reality TV shows and shows about over privileged rich teenagers with no parents. It made me happy and it made me want to live in their world. When it ended in 2007, I never in a million years thought they would bring it back, but as the years went on and a new generation of fans found it and fell in love with it for all the same reasons I had adored it, and all of the actors had to endure that same repetitive question of "will there be a movie/reunion/follow up?", Netflix decided to do this amazing thing and help revive it. And revive it, they did. With four 90 minute episodes (Winter, Spring, Summer and Fall), they brought back every single one of our favorite characters (except Max Medina, which I am still a little sad about) and made me want to live in Stars Hollow all over again. I was able to enjoy every one of those new episodes with my 17 year old niece. We had pizza and ice cream sundaes and coca cola and we were so excited when it was starting that we were both a little giddy.  it is quite honestly one of my most absolute favorite moments of the whole year. It's something that I will remember my whole life. If you are not on board the Gilmore train yet, what in the world are you waiting for??

-Game of Thrones, The Battle of the Bastards. One of the absolute best, most phenomenal hours of television I have ever seen.

-Going to one last Red Wing game at The Joe with my dad. My parents surprised me with tickets for my birthday and what a great time we had. Growing up, the Joe was my happy place. Man, I loved it there. It's where my love for Chris Osgood and the Wings was always always accepted and it's where my heart was broken a few times over losses and swelled over wins. I have such fond memories of that place and to be able to share one last time there with my dad made me really happy.

-Seeing Green Day at The Fillmore with my brothers and sister. We have seen Green Day together countless times over the years, but this one seemed so much more special. I don't know if it was because we got tickets unexpectedly at the last minute, or if it was just because we hadn't seen them live in so long and we were just happy to be at one of their shows, but holy moly did we have fun. We weren't even all sitting together, but we still had the best time. My sister and I sang our hearts out, so much so that we were sick for two weeks after from losing our voices and probably inhaling all the germs surrounding us. But damnit, it was so worth it.

-Discovering the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. This was one of those series that I always looked at and was kind of curious about, but could never pull the trigger of actually buying/reading it. I found the first book at a used bookstore and the rest is history. I was hooked from the first chapter. HOOKED. I got lost in the relationship between Jamie Fraser and Claire Randall completely and fell utterly in love with Scotland through the descriptions in the book. The best thing about this series is that I have approximately 1 million, 47 pages (give or take a few thousand pages) left to read of it and the TV show that accompanies it is just the icing on the cake.

-Carrie came home for good. Carrie came home for good! After accepting a position at Grand Valley State University, my LYBF returned to the Mitten this past summer and my heart is so happy.

-Adopting Bryn. After the heartbreak of losing our Logan Lebeau last year, Charley wanted a dog he could sleep with and call his best friend. We went to the "Meet your best friend at the zoo" event in May, with no guarantees that we were going to come home with anything. We circled all around those tents at least three times and finally asked Charley if any of the dogs had caught his eye. He walked right over to Bryn's crate, where she was curled up in a little ball and looking like she wanted to hide under a blanket, and said "this one". We chatted with the rescue group (P.R.O.U.D. Detroit) and after petting her, and learning that her name was Bryn (sounds great with Bristow, doesn't it?!) and getting all the info we needed, we walked out with this 50 pound pitbull mix who had been through a great deal prior to being rescued (with the scars to prove it) and who was absolutely terrified of us. After a bit of a rocky start (destroyed crates, couches, shoes and Charley's bedroom), we are absolutely head over heels for each other. She is the sweetest, cuddliest pup there ever was and always wants to be by, if not on top of, one of us. And though Charley didn't get a dog who wants to sleep in his bed every night, he did get a dog who is fiercely loyal and very loving, and Bristow got a sister who loves to play tug of war as much as he does. She's our little defunct dalmation from the ghetto and we can't imagine life without her now.

-The Olympics. I love the olympics. I love them. I love reading about them and hearing the feel good stories and watching the competition and seeing all the happy, ecstatic faces and feeling for all the athletes who came just shy of the ultimate goal. It's full of competition, and heart and excitement and for two weeks it makes me feel like I could achieve some phenomenal feat like all of those other extreme humans have done. Let's be honest though, I'm just going to sit on my couch, drinking a coffee drink and feel inspired by watching them. I'm not about to go out and become the ultimate fencing queen. But that's part of the beauty of the olympics... It makes you feel like it's actually a possibility.

-The final Tragically Hip show. The Hip have always been one of our favorite bands. Canada's ultimate rock band has brought Jeff and carrie and myself many, many, many happy memories. Gord Downie is one of the best performers you will ever hear/see live. He is an artist with words and the microphone is his paintbrush. Back in May, when he announced he was battling terminal brain cancer, my heart plummeted. The band decided to do one final farewell tour throughout Canada. We tried to get tickets to the venues closest to us, but it wasn't happening. Those tickets sold out in seconds and rightly so. In August, CBC decided to air their final show live and uninterrupted (during the olympics) for whoever had access to see. It was one of the most beautiful, heartbreaking, exquisite things I have ever seen, and to be able to experience it with Jeff, Charley and Carrie, it's something I will cherish for the rest of my life.

-Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find them. You want to give me more stories in the world of Harry Potter? You go right ahead. I will be right there to see it. I thoroughly enjoyed the movie and the characters, and I loved the subtle shoutouts to original Harry Potter characters/settings. I'm happy that the story made sense and it felt authentic to the HP world. I look forward to seeing the rest of the movies as they come out.

-Jeffrey Dean Morgan as Negan on The Walking Dead. I have never ever wanted a bad guy to get what he deserved more, but to still remain on the show because he is So. Damn. Good.

-Seeing/meeting Kris Allen for the 3rd time. Not only were Natalie and I able to attend another Kris Allen show, but we were lucky enough to meet him again. He is such a nice guy and so thankful for his fans. He chatted with us, took pictures with us and then put on an excellent show. I love that my sister and I can always count on him to put on a good show.

-My mom turned 65. And what a celebration we had! Dennis orchestrated the most amazing birthday video for her compiled with old video clips, songs, and tons of well wishes from her friends and family from all over. It was a lot of fun and I know she appreciated it and we had so much fun watching it.

-The Me Before You movie was released and it was beautiful and lovely. Just like the book.

-Working with some really great people. I know it's corny, but I feel truly lucky to like and enjoy being around the people I work with. We are always laughing with each other and trying to make the best of the situations that aren't so great. We have a good team and it makes me happy to be a part of a group like that. Something so small can make a big difference in your every day life, I tell ya.

Those are my highlights. Honestly, there were way more than I thought there would be and that's pretty cool to look back on, considering a lot of the year was a crapshow (we won't talk about those here though). I truly wish you all a very happy, healthy, safe 2017 filled with the things and people you love, and if bad things come your way, try your best to sprinkle some positivity glitter on it. That's my glass half full, January 1st, page 1 perspective on this brand spanking new year. Thanks for reading my thoughts and being my friend and loving me as family (and if you don't love me, that's okay too because I'm pretty awesome and you're just missing out).

I don't make resolutions, but here is a list of maybes for the year ahead:
-Maybe we will finish painting our kitchen that we started painting last February.
-Maybe I will write more.
-Maybe I will continue on my ophthalmic journey to becoming certified.
-Maybe I will learn to try to be a more forgiving person.
-Maybe I will learn to be a little more patient.
-Maybe I will try to take a little more time for myself.
-Maybe I will stop having mom guilt all the time (HAHAHAHA that's not going to happen)
-Maybe I will read more.
-Maybe I will be a better friend, mom, wife.
-Maybe I will find some motivation to organize my house.
-Maybe I will want to workout (L O L)
-Maybe, just maybe I will go to London and see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child on stage.
-Maybe it will be a really great year